searching for peace!!

so, i've been thinking a lot lately, i need to do something to fill in my free time coz my class is only on wednesday... well last time i have basketball to release my stress but i dont have that anymore.. it's different now.. so, i've been going to my mum's friend editting studio to learn things so i can use it in the future.. what i am trying to say here, is that im so effing bored and dunno what to do with my life.. i think i have commitment problems... i need to fix that!! pfft..

Love In Asia

I was watching this show on KBS ‘Love in Asia’ unfolds the stories about interracial families and their love which transcends borders.

There are over one million foreigners living in Korea. The program tells us the stories about workers from foreign countries, who came to Korea in search of Korean Dream. Love in Asia links between people and countries. It connects Korea and the rest of Asia.

Today was my second time watching that show and I was so impressed by the concept of this show. I must say, I was touched by their initiative and I hope they manage to reach to other people.

I spend most of my free time watching tv, so I'm starting to realized that most of Asian tv shows (I usually watch Korean's) are better than tv shows from the U.S

So, as a Malaysian and Mass Communication student, I really hope our country will take examples from other Asian countries in producing quality tv shows that will educate our citizens in all sorts of things and reach them by heart.

One fine day, I hope i got the chance to produce a show that can make people around the world unite. A girl can dream, right?

my lil bro is now a teenager!! NOooooo!!!

so i saw my lil bro's pic in his page n i was stunned for a bit.. i've just realized that he has grew up so much n now he's a teenager.. (ouh yea... this is a big deal for me coz i dont live with my lil bro, so i dont get to see him much n that sucks) ouh basically when i was in boarding school obviously he's at home and most of the holidays, i have basketball practice and tournament!! then when i finished high school, our parents has already separated and i lived with my mum n he lived with my dad.. n even now i rarely get to see him.. coz he's staying at my eldest sister's place.. so yeah... now he's a teenager, i'm a little worried of what type of boy he'll become.. i mean our age gap is 7 years so he dont get the chance to be in school with any of us like me n my other sibs coz we are the youngest in the family.. well school is a scary place where people adapt to the culture with peer.. n it is a time where people experience new things and all, right?? and teenagers love to try new crazy things.. hm well im still a teenager that soon will be young adult, so i know!! so, i hope he'll turn out to be a okay.. n i think i can never stop worrying about him

p/s does everybody feels the same way?? n does my older sibs feels the same way about me?? hm i wonder..

sibs is short for siblings

me likey.. likey...

ahahaha... wth... im just messing around.. what you told me in the car is really something.. yep..yep..yep.. sometimes u just need to open up to people huh.. im glad you told me.. hehehe.. but it's funny.. i didnt sleep the whole time and that is amazing... wahahaha.. eventhough ppkp sucks.. u make my day..

finding me.... not nemo!!!

there are so many things in my head and i cant seem to think straight.. i think about my future a lot these days... i dont know where im heading to... the future is still a blur to me.. two and a half years back, i thought by now i'll know what to do.. but i guess i was wrong.. but i believe that i'm an adult now.. sooner or later i still have to make my own decisions... so i better start thinking what to do in the future starting now.. how i wish that time can be paused, play, rewind and fast forward so i can go to my favorite moments in life.. ha-ha.. but a wish is just a wish.. my mission now is to find me, myself and i...

standing alone is the best way!!

i have watch a movie where a kid is heartless and dont want to have any close relationship with other people because the kid is afraid he'll get hurt!! i agree though, it does makes sense to me.. some people may say that im a coward because i agree on this, but from my observation, nothing will last in this world, so it is better to stay that way as long as i dont bother other people.. im not proud of my ideas on life but sometimes, this things help me gets through life n makes me stronger!! believe only in your self n not others!!

how i describe myself:

hot tempered
heartless (it is better to stay this way)
sellfish
self-centered
a bad ass!!

i miss my camera weyh!!!!

urghhh... life without my phone n my camera is so freaking depressing.. huhuhu.. i cursed who ever took it.. damn you moron.. now my life isnt complete n the holidays would be so boring without my gadgets.. i guess i have to start saving up my money to buy all that stuff again.. i feel like crying now.. when ever i think about the culprit.. i think about it at home.. in my sleep but all i wanna do is to forget that 2 suweyyy weeks... hm i dont understand why people have to take other people's stuff.. bangang weyh.. hm what to do.. some people are like that.. BAD ASS!! haiyaa.. for some people, they can just get what they want.. hm but not me.. i wish i can tell that culprit how hard n how long i've waited for my own waterproof camera n infact, i saved up all my money last raya n bought that orange phone.. im suppose to shop for other stuff this holiday.. not to shop for things that i already have but lost it.. too bad for me i guess.. halah2 dah la.. i guess i should've just forget about it.. its not like i cant buy new ones.. its just that i have to wait a little longer to buy all those stuff again. hm waiting is a torture to me... yikes!

mission for now:

olympus waterproof camera

sony ericsson phone

and1 basketball shoes