searching for peace!!

so, i've been thinking a lot lately, i need to do something to fill in my free time coz my class is only on wednesday... well last time i have basketball to release my stress but i dont have that anymore.. it's different now.. so, i've been going to my mum's friend editting studio to learn things so i can use it in the future.. what i am trying to say here, is that im so effing bored and dunno what to do with my life.. i think i have commitment problems... i need to fix that!! pfft..

Love In Asia

I was watching this show on KBS ‘Love in Asia’ unfolds the stories about interracial families and their love which transcends borders.

There are over one million foreigners living in Korea. The program tells us the stories about workers from foreign countries, who came to Korea in search of Korean Dream. Love in Asia links between people and countries. It connects Korea and the rest of Asia.

Today was my second time watching that show and I was so impressed by the concept of this show. I must say, I was touched by their initiative and I hope they manage to reach to other people.

I spend most of my free time watching tv, so I'm starting to realized that most of Asian tv shows (I usually watch Korean's) are better than tv shows from the U.S

So, as a Malaysian and Mass Communication student, I really hope our country will take examples from other Asian countries in producing quality tv shows that will educate our citizens in all sorts of things and reach them by heart.

One fine day, I hope i got the chance to produce a show that can make people around the world unite. A girl can dream, right?

my lil bro is now a teenager!! NOooooo!!!

so i saw my lil bro's pic in his page n i was stunned for a bit.. i've just realized that he has grew up so much n now he's a teenager.. (ouh yea... this is a big deal for me coz i dont live with my lil bro, so i dont get to see him much n that sucks) ouh basically when i was in boarding school obviously he's at home and most of the holidays, i have basketball practice and tournament!! then when i finished high school, our parents has already separated and i lived with my mum n he lived with my dad.. n even now i rarely get to see him.. coz he's staying at my eldest sister's place.. so yeah... now he's a teenager, i'm a little worried of what type of boy he'll become.. i mean our age gap is 7 years so he dont get the chance to be in school with any of us like me n my other sibs coz we are the youngest in the family.. well school is a scary place where people adapt to the culture with peer.. n it is a time where people experience new things and all, right?? and teenagers love to try new crazy things.. hm well im still a teenager that soon will be young adult, so i know!! so, i hope he'll turn out to be a okay.. n i think i can never stop worrying about him

p/s does everybody feels the same way?? n does my older sibs feels the same way about me?? hm i wonder..

sibs is short for siblings

me likey.. likey...

ahahaha... wth... im just messing around.. what you told me in the car is really something.. yep..yep..yep.. sometimes u just need to open up to people huh.. im glad you told me.. hehehe.. but it's funny.. i didnt sleep the whole time and that is amazing... wahahaha.. eventhough ppkp sucks.. u make my day..

finding me.... not nemo!!!

there are so many things in my head and i cant seem to think straight.. i think about my future a lot these days... i dont know where im heading to... the future is still a blur to me.. two and a half years back, i thought by now i'll know what to do.. but i guess i was wrong.. but i believe that i'm an adult now.. sooner or later i still have to make my own decisions... so i better start thinking what to do in the future starting now.. how i wish that time can be paused, play, rewind and fast forward so i can go to my favorite moments in life.. ha-ha.. but a wish is just a wish.. my mission now is to find me, myself and i...

standing alone is the best way!!

i have watch a movie where a kid is heartless and dont want to have any close relationship with other people because the kid is afraid he'll get hurt!! i agree though, it does makes sense to me.. some people may say that im a coward because i agree on this, but from my observation, nothing will last in this world, so it is better to stay that way as long as i dont bother other people.. im not proud of my ideas on life but sometimes, this things help me gets through life n makes me stronger!! believe only in your self n not others!!

how i describe myself:

hot tempered
heartless (it is better to stay this way)
sellfish
self-centered
a bad ass!!

i miss my camera weyh!!!!

urghhh... life without my phone n my camera is so freaking depressing.. huhuhu.. i cursed who ever took it.. damn you moron.. now my life isnt complete n the holidays would be so boring without my gadgets.. i guess i have to start saving up my money to buy all that stuff again.. i feel like crying now.. when ever i think about the culprit.. i think about it at home.. in my sleep but all i wanna do is to forget that 2 suweyyy weeks... hm i dont understand why people have to take other people's stuff.. bangang weyh.. hm what to do.. some people are like that.. BAD ASS!! haiyaa.. for some people, they can just get what they want.. hm but not me.. i wish i can tell that culprit how hard n how long i've waited for my own waterproof camera n infact, i saved up all my money last raya n bought that orange phone.. im suppose to shop for other stuff this holiday.. not to shop for things that i already have but lost it.. too bad for me i guess.. halah2 dah la.. i guess i should've just forget about it.. its not like i cant buy new ones.. its just that i have to wait a little longer to buy all those stuff again. hm waiting is a torture to me... yikes!

mission for now:

olympus waterproof camera

sony ericsson phone

and1 basketball shoes

Opportunity Cost!! either Ann's Bday or 3on3!!

weyhhh.. what should i do?? huuhuhu.. i need to choose either to attend ann's bday or go for the 3on3 tournament.. halah2.. i hate it when i need to choose between something.. help me god!! 14hb PD.. 15hb 3on3... y do these things has always been a problem to me la weyh.. aiyaaaa.. salu je time clash.. dekat org laen.. tannak pulak kene.. huhuhuh... think.. think.. think hard ara!!!! later~

cliche

my friends are the greatest, and i, thank god for sending them to me, instead of somebody else..

new shoes.. new spirit!! hehhehe

today i wake up at 7.3oam just to play basketball in um with peja and her friends.. awesomeness la.. i cant remember when is the last time i played and it was so thoughtful of peja to invite me play with them.. i also asked D to join us, she came but she said she's not ready to play yet.. hehe.. she's so funny.. dah la both of our shoes is in blue and white.. sweet kan?? hehe.. D practice maen kayh!! when i got home.. oohhh i cant describe my feelings.. im so happy.. i jump around and i cant stop smiling.. k.bett kate, i gile!! hehehe.. yeah..yeah.. this is what basketball can do to me.. hm i love basketball!! yeahooo... thank you very much james naismith for inventing this game!!!

suvarnabumi airport, bangkok!!!

ish.. im so lucky, im not stranded in bangkok because of the riot recently.. it happens right after my flight took off.. if not, i have to stay in bangkok for another few days and only god knows what will happen to me.. thai people left the airport and started to lie down on the road and didnt care about all the tourists.. the airport was closed and everybody was worried sick because their flight was postponed or maybe canceled.. i dont know.. urghhh thank god!! amin

dissapear???

my uni friends ckp, "bile cuti je ara hilang".... my school friends ckp " ara ni asyik busy je memanjang"....... my family plak ckp "ara ni tak bley dok diam".... adek i plak suro i dissapear je lg bgs.. xfair langsung.. tp nak buat mcm mane.. i tak bley nak change ape2.. ckp sorry pon tak nak terima.. haishhhh sedey nye..

it ryhmes kan?? hehehe

Exam is finally OVER!!!

yeahooo!!! this is how we express our feelings!!

but we forgot to take pictures of our chicken dance.. hehs

lets dance everybody!!!!

Walaweyh!!!

shhhhh... lets snap some pics without anbeen!!

heyya.. dont mess with us!!

haalahmakaisshhh.. garang nye

uisshh.. im scared la hani.. huhu!!!

anbeen make us snap pics wif her.. if not, we're done!!

gazebo and us the crazy people!!

went for dinner wif my crazy freaking peepz at a place called gazebo.. we were like so loud there and other people was like staring at us.. hm mmg la if bwk syasya the attention from boys lagi la.. hak adoish.. her hair was like jepon sesat mane la hang out with us kan.. then after we had finished eating dinner there was this waiter came to us and passed a tissue paper to syasya.. and we were like whoa!! hahah ok syasya.. that dude mmg scary.. n we were laughing our heads off.. halah2.. and then my camera battery low plak.. and i forgot to bring my extra battery.. hm ape la i neh.. forgetful.. mmg la mase tuh tgh lapa plak.. mane tak lupe.. heheh.. hm i love u guys weyh!!!

penolong + pengacau tetap saye!!

hehehe.. every morning when i wake up to study.. ain nyet nyet will be there to accompany me..

ain: ara buatpe? (amek hilighter) ni ape ni? untuk lukis2 ke?
ara: untuk blaja la. jgn main. ain tlg amek kan ara air pliz.. (^_^)
ain: ok. ara nak air ape? air kosong ke? ke nak suro bibik buat air?
ara: plain water je. ain je pegi amek.
ain: ara, nah.
ara: tq ain
ain: ara jom tangkap gambar la. ain boring.

adoish.. budak kecik neh.. kesian dier, boring sbb citra pegi skolah.. hm tu la.. org nak hantar dier g skolah.. tannak.. sampai2 nangis2 tannak lepas org dlm kete. hehehe..

scuba diving lesson and crabby yummy!!

heyya.. sumpah penat gile.. lesson in the morning then went to dp n also mp to get some things.. petang went swimming wif eman.. ouhh.. n then we had seafood for dinner n masyaallah.. sumpah byk gile crab i ate.. its like a mountain of crab on my plate.. hm and da sad part is, i havent read a single thing of my psychology book which the exam is on wednesday.. wahh.. mmg kantoi la my result dis sem.. i have to say goodbye to dean's list i yg tak seberapa tuh.. hm tak mati la kalau tak dapat DL pon, kan ara?? hahaha.. i like to say things like that to myself.. funny hehs? hm there's not much input in my brain dis semester.. i wonder why.. halah2.. may god be with me! not during the exam, but before the exam so i can study for the last two, killer subjects.. by next sunday i'll be free to go anywhere.. heheh.. eleh macam la skrg ni i tak berfoya-foya pegi sane sini.. hm sape suro dis sem bz gile.. kan i dah balas dendam skrg ni.. hm takpe.. ara..ara.. ape la nak jadi.. hm peace out people!! muahx

gagagagaga!!

hahahah... it's been ages since i last up dated my blog.. hehehe.. who cares.. it's not like, there's a lot of people who reads my blog pon.. ouhhh.. ouhhh.. dat day i went to pd wif my peepz and it was one awesome get away.. waaa.. sgt2 besh... then when anbeen and I blk kl mmg la we tros pegi tgk THE HOUSE OF BUNNY which is so freakin funny.. and plus naufal pon ade.. afte movie finished, the three of us when to nz lepak2 n makan2.. sedap wo chicken wing but the char kuay teow hancuss.. adoishh.. it is so hard to find a nice char kuay teow nowadays.. places that is famous for their char kuay teow also very disapointing for me.. i dunno whether it is just me or it is the same for other people.. hm tamaw mkn char kuay teow dah.. i'll stick to thai chicken wantan mee je.. yummy..

my baby i love you forever!!

urghh.. i miss you damn much.. you'll never be replace.. huhuhu.. how can i ever forget you.. you're the best thing ever happened to me!! ouhhh.. sbenanye banyak lagi.. hahaha.. tapi pon you're one of the many things that im glad happened in my life.. i'll never forget my broken guitar that i named my baby i love you forever.. hahaha.. i neglected my studies because of it when i was still schooling but i think it's worth my bloody education.. got to go~ need to interview people from "i cant remember the name" pfftt news paper!! adios

Milia doink!!!!

its not that i dont wanna hang out with you.. im so freakin' busy.. my subjects are all tougher than before.. i have tons of assignments to finish.. 2nd year is hectic!! im sure my pointer for this sem will be below than 3.5.. pfftt.. im not going to be in dean's list anymore.. maybe you'll understand when you're in my shoes.. i feel bad when we dont see each other that much.. but i cant wait for you to finish your SPM.. before you go for PLKN maybe we can hang out and all that.. you know.. i'll try to find time to go and visit you alright!! so sorry buddy.. adios~